I have officially switched to Mac

I bought a macbook today!! A bunch of my friends think I'm an idiot for doing so, but I guess only time will tell if these things actually hold up. For now, I love it. I would hope so, I'm broke. It also came with a free iPod touch (well, I upgraded mine so it was actually just discounted), which is also awesome. I'm still trying to find my way around it, but so far so good. I think I'll watch a few tutorial videos and I'll be all set. I was just sick of my PC, it always froze and misbehaved and just generally fucked up, so I moved on. I'm keeping it though, because I couldn't sell it for very much anyway, and this way I have it if anything goes wrong with this.

In other news, I started another blog, "Life in Hell" It's just basically about my summer in hell" It will probably be a pretty short-lived blog, as I am going back to school in about three weeks and I don't plan on coming back here next summer, but for now I'm just gonna vent there instead of killing my mother.

Third and final news update is that I'm seeing Jay in approximately 6 1/2 days!! I'm joining him and his family at their beach house in jersey, where we'll stay for the weekend, then he'll come back to Boston with me, and stay here about a week before flying back to DC. I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!

Insanity Abounds

So, yeah. I've dropped off the face of the planet lately as far as most people are concerned- I haven't been on Facebook, Twitter, or even Gmail for the last month or so because of my laptop's epic fail. It is currently being held hostage by the laptop station here at Tulane, where they told me, when I went there on Friday to get an update on my lappy's status, that it had been "giving them trouble." No shit. It was giving me trouble too. That's why they have it. Also: CRAP. If it's giving them trouble, I'm starting to loose hope.

Life has been crazy lately, tomorrow is the last day of classes so I've been working off he hook to get shit done, or in many cases re-done because all of this shit was on my laptop, which currently won't turn on. Hopefully they'll get done with it within the next day or two so I can have it for finals, but honestly as long as it's not dead I'll be cool. I really can't afford a new laptop right now.=\

I realized this morning that Jay and I have been going out for almost 4 months now, which is crazy. It's flown by. I'm not looking forward to this summer when he'll be in Israel for 8 weeks (well, 6 weeks, followed by Egypt for a few days and England for a week). Every time I think about it I get all sad and pouty. Then, about the same time he gets back, the camp I work at starts up for 3 weeks, so I won't be ale to see him until the end of July. So I'm sad for the end of the semester.

Also, Cole, our APO (Alpha Phi Omega, National Service Fraternity) region director came to Tulane last weekend to quiz our chapter about history and stuff about APO so that he can recommend us for our charter. We passed! So now he's recommending us for our charter and hopefully sometime next semester I won't be the only brother here at Tulane, which would be cool.

Wow, I just wrote this entire thing in like 10 minutes, which is really impressive for me because I don't usually type this fast, but i guess I had a lot to say. I guess that's all for now.

Break: Boredom then Insanity

I don't even remember what I said in my last entry, it seems like I wrote it ages ago even though that was less than a week ago. Well, I'm currently back in MA for the holidays, I got here Tuesday. Since then I've done absolutely nothing. After Christmas I'm basically booked until I leave for NOLA again, but this whole week before Christmas is a complete time sink. I've practiced some cymbals, made some Arabic flash cards, gone sledding (more on that later), gone to two musicals, and had some much-needed girl talk, but I do not consider any of these things productive enough to justify the 5 days of my life I'm missing. I'm so much more productive at school, so I don't really know why I came home so early. Coming home today would've made more sense. Tomorrow is my mother's birthday, so I do have to be here for that, but if it weren't for that I would say I don't need to be here until the 23rd.
So back to the sledding. It snowed about 16-18 inches here since Friday. It's a little crazy. I love snow and even I think it's a bit much. It snowed about 10 inches Friday, 1 or 2 Saturday, and another 6 today. It's also been about 19 degrees out the whole time and winds are sposed to be about 25mph tomorrow, gusting to 50. Yeah, you heard right, FIFTY MPH. I know I wanted winter, but I am not used to this, this is not the winter I was expecting.
I'm spending Christmas with my dad (who I have yet to see this break), standard family stuff. Should be fun tho, I've already seen my mom's family this break so I thought I'd see my dad's for Christmas. Plus, I was with my mom's family for Thanksgiving. And I think my uncle Donny is gonna be here for Christmas from Indiana, and I haven't seen him in awhile.
After Christmas is when my break should get interesting. Nationals for APO is in Boston this year, and I will be representing Tulane's petitioning group, along with 2 other girls. I'm excited because I'll get to see some brothers from CCC, who I haven't seen since April. That's the 27th thru the 30th of December. On the 31st, my friend Jay from Tulane gets here. He's staying with me for a week, until the 6th or 7th, and then basically once he leaves I'm leaving to drive back to NOLA.
It's gonna be a crazy couple of weeks. I'll post updates when I get the chance.

Learning is my Thing

Ok, so apparently I'm on a blogging binge (aka a procrastination binge). I only have one final left, it's in 2.5 hours, and I have had enough Arabic in the last couple days to last a lifetime. And now I'm taking it next semester. It just makes me wonder.
if i hate studying so much, then why do I constantly overload myself so that I have to study nonstop all the time. if I were to be a normal person and take 18ish credit hours next semester i could probably have a lot more time to hang out and have fun. But no, I insist on taking 22 hours and ensuring myself a slow and painful death. Don't get me wrong I love the learning part, it's just the paper-writing, test-taking part I don't like. I wish schooling wasn't so institutionalized and focused on grades, because grades aren't my thing. Learning is my thing.

Thought organization (or at least to me it's organized)

While I'm here there are a few other things I want to post about. This is completely unrelated to the last post so I figured it'd be better to just start a new post.

(BTW this is a really ADD list)

1.I love Christmas music
2. I'm currently in the process of learning 2 different instruments and I'm uber excited about this. But a little scared I'm getting in over my head. Yay music.
3. I should be studying for my final right now, but it's not till tomorrow afternoon. *hurrah procrastination*
4. As stated in my last post I'm rather confused about my life right now.
5. I really don't want to go home for the holidays, can't I just stay here?
6. I think I might be getting in a little over my head for next semester, but I'm not sure if I should lighten my load (not just class-wise, in other ways as well) or tough it out and put myself to the test.

I'm actually going to stop for now because I really should sleep, but this list will be continued.

So, uh, you know those things called life plans?

I haven't updated and I figured that while not studying for my final at 1am I could at least be semi-productive and do this.
I've recently become very confused about my life- more precisely what I want to do with it. I've basically been pre-med since i was four years old, and it's always seemed nice, fun, and i still think it would be. It also seems tailored to my strengths-science, math, compassion. But is there something else I would enjoy more? Is there some other way that I could help even more people? The problem is that I don't know. So what do I do with that little tidbit of information? I don't know that either.
I recently decided to switch about half my schedule. I'm currently thinking I want to study Political Science. I don't really know why but all of the courses seem so interesting that I decided I'd take a few. Hopefully I enjoy them. Polisci also goes really well with international development, which I am still planning on studying, so at the very least the courses I take next semester will count toward that, though I will still need a primary major.
I have a music minor, too, but I don't think I'd want to major in music, mostly because, as much as I love it, I want to spend my life improving life in impoverished countries and I know that being a music major will not help me with that.
I don't really know what else to say on that topic, I just felt like actually writing out how I felt, in hopes it would make me feel better; it did. I'll keep y'all posted.

O, the Holidays

So I'm home for Thanksgiving right now, and while I enjoy being with my friends and loved spending yesterday in Boston, but I hated the actual holidays. My family always fights about everything and I just can't stand them anymore. I really wish there was some other acceptable thing to do for the holidays that wasn't spending time with one's family. I think next year I'll stay at school. Not because I won't want to see my family, but because I don't want to see them when they're all drunk and I'm sober. Its not fun at all. I'll see them some other time.